HEARTBROKEN by Mom
As I wake up every morning
My heart breaks again and again
You're the first thing on my mind
Happy life has been left behind.
I miss your smiles, your hugs,
The way you made me laugh
We have lost so much
Now that you have passed.
I can't believe your gone
The pain is much to bear
I think of you always
It's just so unfair.
You were far too young
No chance to mature
You would have been a great dad,
For that, I am sure.
A part of me died too
I would happily go in your place
I'll never understand why
It has to be a mistake.
I'm trying to survive
The best that I know how
I wish I could have you back
It's too late for that now.
My son, I'll always love you
I'll meet you there someday
Until that time shall come
In my heart you'll stay.
My Grandson Cameron by Nanny
My heart aches when I think of you
A part of me is lost.
Your years on earth were far too few
All who love you feel the cost.
Such joy you brought into my life,
Your love refreshed anew.
No chance to ever take a wife,
A tragic loss of one so true.
To you I write this letter,
To the boy, almost a man.
One day we'll be together
In God's Great Promised Land.
The Loss of a Child
For some people life can be so unfair
You have no right to complain unless you’ve been there
The loss of a child is too much to bear
Why do only some people have to suffer such loss?
It ruins one’s life, too much of a cost
So much has been lost, our future together is gone
Life’s lessons are hard but I didn’t need to learn
I already knew life’s too short, live each day to the fullest
I had a great life until this
People say “Life’s not fair” but what do they know
Their complaints so pointless, they don’t have a clue
Their losses so trivial compared to the loss of a child
You only have the right if you do know
Mothers, I’m speaking to you if you’ve lost a child you bore
You’ve lost your soul, only you could know
A loss such as this makes me constantly cry
A loss such as this makes me want to die
A loss such as this, I hope you will never have to know
By Wendy
It Doesn’t Make Sense
By Wendy Bieberle
Each and every single day
I prayed for my children to be okay
But it didn’t matter, it still happened to me
One of my children died you see.
Now people say “You just need to pray”
“God will heal your pain.”
It just doesn’t make sense to me
I prayed for my child to remain.
Some people say “God needed him more”
“He knows what He is doing”
If that be the case then let’s just erase
Your children from all you are doing.
Are you saying my child was taken
Because he was more special than yours?
What you don’t understand is if God did this to me
Then forever He will be scorned.
Bad things happen to good people
But that is not always perceived
I’m tired of the people who say they love God treating me badly
I have been deceived.
ALONG THE WAY by Cameron's Mom
It’s year nine since you left this plane
The years of love turned to years of pain
For great grief is the reciprocal of great love
When your child flies home to the sky above
It’s taken its toll, I feel an old soul
There is much I have learned along the way
I can stay stuck and angry and bitter
Or I can live for me and you and be better
Seeing the beauty in the little things
Helping the others through the pain
Being there for family, friends and even strangers
Hoping others have learned about the dangers
Making a difference, there are always choices
Learning to overshadow the darkness and voices
It takes patience and determination
To choose the path of dedication
Honoring a life loved beyond your own
Lighting the way til I get home
REMEMBERING
Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further,
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry,
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing
I feel it will take a lifetime.
~ By Elizabeth Dent ~
My Mom is a Survivor
My mom is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying
when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night.
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.
But like the sands upon a beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom
who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others,
a smile of disguise.
But through Heaven's open door,
I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My mom tries to cope with my death,
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her
knows it's her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom
through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that
Angel protect me forevermore.
I know that doesn't help her,
or ease the burdens she bears.
So if you get a chance, call to her
And show her that you care.
For no matter what she feels,
my surviving mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal.
~K. D'Ormeaux
LIES
My Mom, she tells alot of lies
she never did before.
From now until she dies,
she'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mom how she is
and because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mom how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?
Ask my Mom how she is,
she seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see
nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mom how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For Gods sake Mom, just tell the truth
just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is
she'll lie and say she's fine.
I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
we'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mom
with all the lies you told!"
- Author unknown
